Tuesday, 8 April 2008
Monday, 24 March 2008
Ahar
Just did my philosophy 500 word assessment and i feeeeeeeeeeeel awesome, so awesome. I can feel light and energy pulsing through out my entire body it is an incredible feeling, like finishing a big book. I look at my work and am in awe, but not surprised, they always told me i was really smart, the tests proved it and i've rarely lived up to it. Now at 23 i feel i am doing stuff worthy of the number 137. I really love what i wrote on Philosophy but i hate that i'm doing it five hours before it's due. I'll have to improve upon that but knowing how GREAT it feels to be writing from my head and heart will inspire me to jump straight into it. I have this week I suppose. Now football and then flick.....life has never been this awesome, i am tingling again, i have a beautiful best friend vanessa, i have a wonderful house, i have amazing friends, i have amazing adventures, i am free, i am loved, i am wise, i am smart, i am living to my full potential i am making friends i am having fun i am grateful i am blessed and i deserve it all, i earnt it all.
Everything has fallen into place perfectly. EMBRACE THE ICOEC!
Kirk out
Everything has fallen into place perfectly. EMBRACE THE ICOEC!
Kirk out
Monday, 17 March 2008
Mind spill
Look how far we've come, tonight about 15 people of the elitest level, true amazing wonderful human beings, lets list them
diana
james
shae
michael
tash
tash 2
jay
chih
jacob
matt
marie
laura
dinner, made by two beautiful french girls, marie who takes amazing photographs and who is absolutely beautiful, and i get to photograph her, so lucky, no luck, blessed, all deserved, years ago i all i dreamed of was just having a girl that liked me, and now i have that and so much much more, every sunday, beautiful people, with beautiful visions, goals, changing the world starting with the people around us
you are your friends, you are the people you hang out with, and if somebody doesn't see what an amazing and wonderful person you are, or value it, then they're not worth your time
listening to ray la montagne, so awesome, how did i find him, by accident, i looked up upon a whim of a chance of a thought, www.myspace.com/godisgood or godisgreat or something, i don't even know why, the thought just came, and on the page was the song "empty" and so i followed it through and now i have two albums of more awesome music by the grace of a random thought that came from out of absolutely nowhere
so much greatness, such a wonderful day, with a beautiful girl, a beautiful friend, a beautiful day, a beautiful street, beautiful kisses, new, exciting, innocent, guilty, a friend from up north, a companion, a best friend who is an example of love and kinship that is only strengthened by others who don't match up, others who are all talk and no action, a worthy lesson, judge by actions not by their words, i also, must be true and congruent with my actions and my words, thinking about it i am, and was, i cannot be responsible for another persons insecurities, i tried my very very best, i put it out there multiple times, but if somebody does not take a gift offered, who does the gift then belong to.
swimming dragon, love it, guitar, singing, love it.... vanessa, love it, theresa, love it, despite it's absence, lidija, so mature, so true, so right, miss her, but not really, am happy for her, she's in europe, emma back in august, i do miss her, so special in her own way, david, gotta hang out more, is a best friend, gotta fix and clean car, fix van, do uni work, be elite...
in room now, with the wall, what a great wall, icoec, what a great thing, a great acronym, what a great life, a great room, gotta fix the car, the pacific, oh wow, the pacific, what an experience, must have perspective, perspective, living inside it you don't realise the difference between now and when you weren't in it, if you did, you'd be estatic, constantly, live in the two places then, the place of realising what it is like to not have it, and the place of having it, and be giddy with gratefulness, and don't just say it, feel it, live, it, be it.
diana
james
shae
michael
tash
tash 2
jay
chih
jacob
matt
marie
laura
dinner, made by two beautiful french girls, marie who takes amazing photographs and who is absolutely beautiful, and i get to photograph her, so lucky, no luck, blessed, all deserved, years ago i all i dreamed of was just having a girl that liked me, and now i have that and so much much more, every sunday, beautiful people, with beautiful visions, goals, changing the world starting with the people around us
you are your friends, you are the people you hang out with, and if somebody doesn't see what an amazing and wonderful person you are, or value it, then they're not worth your time
listening to ray la montagne, so awesome, how did i find him, by accident, i looked up upon a whim of a chance of a thought, www.myspace.com/godisgood or godisgreat or something, i don't even know why, the thought just came, and on the page was the song "empty" and so i followed it through and now i have two albums of more awesome music by the grace of a random thought that came from out of absolutely nowhere
so much greatness, such a wonderful day, with a beautiful girl, a beautiful friend, a beautiful day, a beautiful street, beautiful kisses, new, exciting, innocent, guilty, a friend from up north, a companion, a best friend who is an example of love and kinship that is only strengthened by others who don't match up, others who are all talk and no action, a worthy lesson, judge by actions not by their words, i also, must be true and congruent with my actions and my words, thinking about it i am, and was, i cannot be responsible for another persons insecurities, i tried my very very best, i put it out there multiple times, but if somebody does not take a gift offered, who does the gift then belong to.
swimming dragon, love it, guitar, singing, love it.... vanessa, love it, theresa, love it, despite it's absence, lidija, so mature, so true, so right, miss her, but not really, am happy for her, she's in europe, emma back in august, i do miss her, so special in her own way, david, gotta hang out more, is a best friend, gotta fix and clean car, fix van, do uni work, be elite...
in room now, with the wall, what a great wall, icoec, what a great thing, a great acronym, what a great life, a great room, gotta fix the car, the pacific, oh wow, the pacific, what an experience, must have perspective, perspective, living inside it you don't realise the difference between now and when you weren't in it, if you did, you'd be estatic, constantly, live in the two places then, the place of realising what it is like to not have it, and the place of having it, and be giddy with gratefulness, and don't just say it, feel it, live, it, be it.
Wednesday, 4 July 2007
What's going on
Nothing interests me.
I can't tell if i'm tired, or hungry, or thirsty, sometimes i feel like things but don't really want them.
I can't get back in the right direction i want to go in because i can't find the motivation to do so. Being sick all i've done is sit around watching movies and tv and i'm so bored of it, bored of everything, i need to get out and be around people, just three days by myself and i'm going crazy.
crazy-er.
kirk out.
I can't tell if i'm tired, or hungry, or thirsty, sometimes i feel like things but don't really want them.
I can't get back in the right direction i want to go in because i can't find the motivation to do so. Being sick all i've done is sit around watching movies and tv and i'm so bored of it, bored of everything, i need to get out and be around people, just three days by myself and i'm going crazy.
crazy-er.
kirk out.
Tuesday, 3 July 2007
This Week
- Get sick
- Hot Water Stops working
well that's enough to be crap!
now tho, hot water is back (shiny new hot water system) and feeling better
we now return to regular broadcasting.
kirk out.
Wednesday, 20 June 2007
RANDOM
In city to meet theresa at 12
Lidija calls me and says to meet her around 2pm
So i'm catching the train around the loop to meet lidija and jason calls, i ask him where he is, he's on the train running parallel to mine, i can see it 20 metres away across from me.
Jason and I sit on the steps of flinders st and chat, and i see Vanessa across the steps through ten people. She comes over, then Lidija turns up.
ALL MY FRIENDS ARE STALKING ME
random.
Lidija calls me and says to meet her around 2pm
So i'm catching the train around the loop to meet lidija and jason calls, i ask him where he is, he's on the train running parallel to mine, i can see it 20 metres away across from me.
Jason and I sit on the steps of flinders st and chat, and i see Vanessa across the steps through ten people. She comes over, then Lidija turns up.
ALL MY FRIENDS ARE STALKING ME
random.
It's never over, all my riches for her smiles when i slept so soft against her, oh lover, you should have come over.
So told to be there at 9:30pm, there's a huge line of plastic fantastic people, youngins, oldins, all in about $300 worth of clothes each and oozing pretentiousness out of every pore, i wait fifteen minutes, talk to the people on my left in the line, spaz's, talk to the people on my right, spaz's, finally some decent people join me in the line and have a good chat, at this time i am sure there's more people in the line than the actual club. Sms's are about ten minutes apart and i've been there fourty minutes having rung out the phone eight times and waiting for a call i figure is not going to come.
I jump in the car, crank up some jeff buckley and start heading to the place i know i should be.
There's no line at all, just a friendly bouncer who greets me by my first name as I walk in the door and spot two familiar faces straight away. The bartenders wave to me while smiling and saying my name, i get hugs (not handshakes) from my old friends, we chat like we haven't seen each other in ages..... It has been ages since i've been here. The music is funky, it is chilled, it's not loud, it's not cramped, there's that familiar smell, that familiar atmosphere, the place is filled with a variety of people, culture and ages. A collection of people more varied than any other place you'd find in the city, friendly faces, open hearts, open minds, mouths willing to talk and ears willing to listen. Brains willing to learn and to teach, artists bonding with artists, outcasts with outcasts, the people here could not be more of strangers to eachother, but at the same time they are as close as a "hey how are you" and a friendly smile. I kick back on my chair, breathe it all in, i make friends with the strangers to my left and laugh with my friends on the right. There was no chance of a conversation like this where i started my night, deep, interesting, filling conversation, so thick that you can slow it down to a snail pace and it's still interesting. You hang off every word because every word is interesting, these people have real stories, real experiences and you like hearing every word they say because it's original and comes from a place so true. They are travellers, they are artists, they are musicians, they are activists, they are students, the intellectuals, they are my friends that i've made and friends i could meet.
I walk up to the bar to get a drink and a friend i have been missing walks in and i smile a smile bigger than all that has been smiled the last few weeks, we spot eachother and another hug is shared, we order our dinner, he has no cash but i happily pay because we are brothers in this place, here you never seem to have any friends go, you only seem to have friends arrive. Our numbers increase, from old friends to new friends we sit, we share pizza, we buy eachother beers, we move to the couches, the smiling never stops.
I spot two cute girls walking past and they sit across from us, my friend and i decide they should join us, i walk straight over, introduce myself and they laugh, they smile, they love it, they come over and we begin talking. More soon-to-be-friends arrive and are converted to the fold. An activist, a hippy, an alcoholic ;), my friend, myself, and two cute girls. We chat, we drink, we enjoy ourselves. We move about the couches effortlessly and naturally, conversations flowing every which way, combining, disecting, forming, disipating, but there is never any silence, and there is never an end to the smiles, or the respect. This is so unlike the place i started my night at.
The night winds on and one of the cute girls is suddenly holding my hand as i lead her to a warm lighted corner, we share a kiss with the sweetness of that i-just-met-you-an-hour-ago niceness and she dips her head into my shoulder and i cradle it there. We share the comfort of eachother's lips, and eachother's embrace, strangers only 62 minutes earlier.
I walk back to my couch, and the man who is more the brother than the two i really have has arrived. An important part of my life, an advisor, a friend, a brother i had not seen in months, only had short and abrupt phone conversations filled with frailed attempts to catch up, neither having the time or the money. There is no talk but the feelings are there, feelings are not held back here, they are spread like a warm rug in the winter, covering you, making you safe, warm, protected, loved. It is tough to do this, this is honesty, this is real life, these are the tough people, the people you want by yourside at a crisis, the people you want at your wedding, and at your funeral. One of the girls with my brother blatantly offers to have sex with me in the toilets, i politely pass it up but tell her i'm flattered, we laugh, it is not awkward, this is the place of truth and honesty, sex, drugs, anything is free here. My place to be myself, to be unashamed, to let go, to be free, from all hestitation, all fear, to embrace our own uniqueness, and let our souls shine through unhindered, and proud.
kirk out.
I jump in the car, crank up some jeff buckley and start heading to the place i know i should be.
There's no line at all, just a friendly bouncer who greets me by my first name as I walk in the door and spot two familiar faces straight away. The bartenders wave to me while smiling and saying my name, i get hugs (not handshakes) from my old friends, we chat like we haven't seen each other in ages..... It has been ages since i've been here. The music is funky, it is chilled, it's not loud, it's not cramped, there's that familiar smell, that familiar atmosphere, the place is filled with a variety of people, culture and ages. A collection of people more varied than any other place you'd find in the city, friendly faces, open hearts, open minds, mouths willing to talk and ears willing to listen. Brains willing to learn and to teach, artists bonding with artists, outcasts with outcasts, the people here could not be more of strangers to eachother, but at the same time they are as close as a "hey how are you" and a friendly smile. I kick back on my chair, breathe it all in, i make friends with the strangers to my left and laugh with my friends on the right. There was no chance of a conversation like this where i started my night, deep, interesting, filling conversation, so thick that you can slow it down to a snail pace and it's still interesting. You hang off every word because every word is interesting, these people have real stories, real experiences and you like hearing every word they say because it's original and comes from a place so true. They are travellers, they are artists, they are musicians, they are activists, they are students, the intellectuals, they are my friends that i've made and friends i could meet.
I walk up to the bar to get a drink and a friend i have been missing walks in and i smile a smile bigger than all that has been smiled the last few weeks, we spot eachother and another hug is shared, we order our dinner, he has no cash but i happily pay because we are brothers in this place, here you never seem to have any friends go, you only seem to have friends arrive. Our numbers increase, from old friends to new friends we sit, we share pizza, we buy eachother beers, we move to the couches, the smiling never stops.
I spot two cute girls walking past and they sit across from us, my friend and i decide they should join us, i walk straight over, introduce myself and they laugh, they smile, they love it, they come over and we begin talking. More soon-to-be-friends arrive and are converted to the fold. An activist, a hippy, an alcoholic ;), my friend, myself, and two cute girls. We chat, we drink, we enjoy ourselves. We move about the couches effortlessly and naturally, conversations flowing every which way, combining, disecting, forming, disipating, but there is never any silence, and there is never an end to the smiles, or the respect. This is so unlike the place i started my night at.
The night winds on and one of the cute girls is suddenly holding my hand as i lead her to a warm lighted corner, we share a kiss with the sweetness of that i-just-met-you-an-hour-ago niceness and she dips her head into my shoulder and i cradle it there. We share the comfort of eachother's lips, and eachother's embrace, strangers only 62 minutes earlier.
I walk back to my couch, and the man who is more the brother than the two i really have has arrived. An important part of my life, an advisor, a friend, a brother i had not seen in months, only had short and abrupt phone conversations filled with frailed attempts to catch up, neither having the time or the money. There is no talk but the feelings are there, feelings are not held back here, they are spread like a warm rug in the winter, covering you, making you safe, warm, protected, loved. It is tough to do this, this is honesty, this is real life, these are the tough people, the people you want by yourside at a crisis, the people you want at your wedding, and at your funeral. One of the girls with my brother blatantly offers to have sex with me in the toilets, i politely pass it up but tell her i'm flattered, we laugh, it is not awkward, this is the place of truth and honesty, sex, drugs, anything is free here. My place to be myself, to be unashamed, to let go, to be free, from all hestitation, all fear, to embrace our own uniqueness, and let our souls shine through unhindered, and proud.
kirk out.
Tuesday, 19 June 2007
You are
I am flying to perth to see my film premiere at an international film festival on july the fourteenth.
I am flying from perth to sydney on the seventeenth to discuss producing a SIXTY THOUSAND DOLLAR film on one average man becoming a champion.
I really like that word, champion.
I also like this song, Remy Zero - Fair
I am getting a tattoo this week or next week
I am getting fitter every day
I am buying a new set of clothes
I am going to return my car to it's former glory
I am writing and playing good music
I am going to cairns for two weeks in september. This will cost $360 for flights. $350 for accomodation, that's 700 dollars, with $280 spending money, that's going to be $1000. I will save that much up easy. Maybe i'll take vanessa with me.
I am going to do the army boot camp.
I am getting a job at cotton on and will work my ass off
I am getting a job in a bar again and will work my ass off
I am turning 23 this Sunday.
......I am going to start acting like it.
I am flying from perth to sydney on the seventeenth to discuss producing a SIXTY THOUSAND DOLLAR film on one average man becoming a champion.
I really like that word, champion.
I also like this song, Remy Zero - Fair
I am getting a tattoo this week or next week
I am getting fitter every day
I am buying a new set of clothes
I am going to return my car to it's former glory
I am writing and playing good music
I am going to cairns for two weeks in september. This will cost $360 for flights. $350 for accomodation, that's 700 dollars, with $280 spending money, that's going to be $1000. I will save that much up easy. Maybe i'll take vanessa with me.
I am going to do the army boot camp.
I am getting a job at cotton on and will work my ass off
I am getting a job in a bar again and will work my ass off
I am turning 23 this Sunday.
......I am going to start acting like it.
Monday, 18 June 2007
Hmmm
Woke up at 3pm today, sleeping patterns ruined again, how did i fix em last time, i think i just embraced them and nature took it's course, well i need to do a few things today, i'll get on to them now.
Thursday, 14 June 2007
Wednesday, 13 June 2007
Monday, 11 June 2007
break ups in the past
have left me crying in my doona for days,
this time though, ironically because i wasn't enough of a man, i'm going to take it like one, and just get on with life, it took me about 1.5 seconds to get over it, it actually makes it easier when they do it over sms.
this time though, ironically because i wasn't enough of a man, i'm going to take it like one, and just get on with life, it took me about 1.5 seconds to get over it, it actually makes it easier when they do it over sms.
blog will be my friend tonight
washing clothes, cleaning room, need to fix things, need to fix things, must fix everything!
have to be clean, healthy, organised, neat.
keep getting distracted, guitar, piano, movies, clothes, dogs, argh, getting somewhere though
room clean...cleaner....one more load of washing, 3am, should go to bed, have to go to rye tomorrow
have to be clean, healthy, organised, neat.
keep getting distracted, guitar, piano, movies, clothes, dogs, argh, getting somewhere though
room clean...cleaner....one more load of washing, 3am, should go to bed, have to go to rye tomorrow
Friday, 8 June 2007
When a great actor messes up a line on stage
he continues the performance like nothing wrong has happened.
Tuesday, 5 June 2007
What a Wasted DAY@#$
It's 2:15pm and i've done nothing, i have a list of things to do, but have a bigger list of things i should have done and haven't. I can't even get myself to reply back to my girlfriends cute sms i'm that lazy, what's wrong with me!
Gonna get started, clean my room, do some washing, music first, maybe put on some good jazz, bow ba bada boowww, i gottt sunshinneee, on a clouuddyy daayyy, when it's cooldd outside, i've got thee montth off maay, i guueess, you ssaayy, what can make me feel this waay, mmmyyy giirrllll.
Gonna get started, clean my room, do some washing, music first, maybe put on some good jazz, bow ba bada boowww, i gottt sunshinneee, on a clouuddyy daayyy, when it's cooldd outside, i've got thee montth off maay, i guueess, you ssaayy, what can make me feel this waay, mmmyyy giirrllll.
Monday, 4 June 2007
so tomorrow
well today, in about 10 hours, i am going to get a phone call saying i have a job at aussie signs, this will be great news, very very great news :D
kirk out
kirk out
Saturday, 2 June 2007
So funny story...
Theresa has been telling me about her ex's new girl he's been seeing
I go to see my good friend i haven't seen in ages on friday
We're having crepes, so i send a picture to theresa, i'm telling my friend about my new girlfriend hannah and she starts telling me about this boy she's seeing
Theresa msg's back, and her pic pops up on my phone and my friend Georgie goes
"Oh that's his ex gf!"
......
I go to see my good friend i haven't seen in ages on friday
We're having crepes, so i send a picture to theresa, i'm telling my friend about my new girlfriend hannah and she starts telling me about this boy she's seeing
Theresa msg's back, and her pic pops up on my phone and my friend Georgie goes
"Oh that's his ex gf!"
......
Friday, 1 June 2007
The Majesty Of Music and The Irony Of Having My Father Back
Depression is the ugliest thing on the planet. My father has had it for the better part of a decade. Basically when somebody has depression they cease to exist, they are just a form, a shape, no real meaning or emotion attached to it. So yes i was raised by my mother and hence have some female type thought thingies in my head. I don't really mind though because it's given me a better insight than the majority of guys and is a major factor in me being able to score some absolutely amazing girls. Plus being a macho dickhead gets boring real fast. Anyway back to the point of my dad, he's been sitting on the couch or sleeping his bed in front of the tv for years and nothing would get him up. This has made his wife and my mum quite sad and frustrated with him, the whole family has been. At first we tried to be loving, that didn't work, then we tried to be vigil and that didn't work so then in our frustration we were maybe too nasty, but it's so very very annoying to see a family member who used to be so much just throw in the towel at 55. We'd all lost hope, ironic that we'd all become like him in that sense.
The other day though, we went down to our new house in rye, dad did some gardenning and built a bbq. We were all very impressed. It was even stranger when i woke up the next day to led zeppelin, i came out and dad was rifling through his vinyl records, he has over a hundred, i was again shocked that his room was clean, the garage was in some semblance of order (been messy for nearly two decades) and all the dishes had been done. My dad was doing things, and as he found more vinyl records we chatted and did some more housework and for the first time sine 1994 he was the rock climbing horse riding basketball playing role model dad from the wonder years of my family. As the amazing sound of vinyl hammered out from the speakers the sounds of Hendrix/Zeppelin/Beatles/Rolling Stones/Janis Joplin we did various house stuff that had been neglected for some time and my father who had been under some dark curse (like the king in the second lord of the rings!!!) was suddenly back after ten years of being a complete non event.
The thing that was most amazing and sparked this blog though, is at 9am this morning (dad is never up then) my door is banged open "GET UP TIM GOTTA FIX THE CHAIN SAW". I was SO ANGRY from being awoken but i was flash backed to 1992 and my first days of grade 2 with that same figure in the doorway yelling at me to get up. I was also estatic to the point of those happy tears, my dad is back, and i think it's all to do with the amazing music of the 60's and 70's, and i just wanted to finish with the knowledge that vinyl sounds so much better than cd.
kirk out
The other day though, we went down to our new house in rye, dad did some gardenning and built a bbq. We were all very impressed. It was even stranger when i woke up the next day to led zeppelin, i came out and dad was rifling through his vinyl records, he has over a hundred, i was again shocked that his room was clean, the garage was in some semblance of order (been messy for nearly two decades) and all the dishes had been done. My dad was doing things, and as he found more vinyl records we chatted and did some more housework and for the first time sine 1994 he was the rock climbing horse riding basketball playing role model dad from the wonder years of my family. As the amazing sound of vinyl hammered out from the speakers the sounds of Hendrix/Zeppelin/Beatles/Rolling Stones/Janis Joplin we did various house stuff that had been neglected for some time and my father who had been under some dark curse (like the king in the second lord of the rings!!!) was suddenly back after ten years of being a complete non event.
The thing that was most amazing and sparked this blog though, is at 9am this morning (dad is never up then) my door is banged open "GET UP TIM GOTTA FIX THE CHAIN SAW". I was SO ANGRY from being awoken but i was flash backed to 1992 and my first days of grade 2 with that same figure in the doorway yelling at me to get up. I was also estatic to the point of those happy tears, my dad is back, and i think it's all to do with the amazing music of the 60's and 70's, and i just wanted to finish with the knowledge that vinyl sounds so much better than cd.
kirk out
Wednesday, 30 May 2007
2.4k in 10 minutes
Well close to, 10 minutes 20 seconds, the last k was hell, absolute hell, but you are bigger than your body, by will alone i pushed the dial over to 2.4k, i just knew i could do it, i blocked out the pain, my exploding chest, my butter legs, the pounding headache, i just focussed and did it, the human spirit is a remarkable thing, in fact writing this blog is going to get me off my ass to go to the gym, as i planned to do three hours ago when i left work, but i ended up having lunch with adam, who has an awesome 67 camaro in his garage. Adam is quite cool, he's 28 and has an apartment in hampton st and an awesome job, we're headin out on saturday night to socialise and hopefully find some women, for him that is, i'm happy with what i have, very very happy, it should be good though to go out and just enjoy myself.
The Camaro
Inspired by Trees (Theresa)
Sunset (few months old but still, a reminder of being able to go down to the beach and not get blown away)
Joni backing the car out
The Camaro
Inspired by Trees (Theresa)
Sunset (few months old but still, a reminder of being able to go down to the beach and not get blown away)
Joni backing the car out
Tuesday, 29 May 2007
MMMMMMmmmm
I love swimming, i love the rain, i love the ocean, i love water. We come from water, we're made of water, where there is water there is life. Diving into the pool each day and feeling it envelop me never loses it's awesomeness, i swim twenty or so laps but i also kick about like a little kid for about twenty minutes up and down my lane while the other people at the gym look at me strange. Front flips, back flips, silly walks i do it all, being in the water is some spiritual and emotional cleanse for me, i have my greatest thoughts and my best ideas when i'm shooting through under the water much like the birds fly above. It is my meditation and my relaxation, and completely worth the black eyes my goggles give me and the pale skin the chlorine leaves me with.
kirk out.
kirk out.
Monday, 28 May 2007
Saturday, 26 May 2007
Wednesday, 23 May 2007
Tuesday, 22 May 2007
Friday, 18 May 2007
Losing things
I hate losing things, i really really fucking hate it.
Things i've lost which really annoy me
- Big Black Coat
- Long sleeve tops galore
- Cool t-shirts
- Grey hoodie!!
Things i've lost which really annoy me
- Big Black Coat
- Long sleeve tops galore
- Cool t-shirts
- Grey hoodie!!
Thursday, 17 May 2007
I wish i wrote this.
Ben Lee. His songs are melded visions of strict
autobiography and megalomaniacal revolutionary escapism.
Weaving fragile lines between melodic story telling, sharp
songwriting and a developing self awareness, his tunes are
portraits of ideas and emotions that often transcend the
boundaries of their creator. Ben's songs exist in the world
where a commitment to adventure and reckless ambition are
the only recognizable landmarks, as he sings about his
personal observations on Life, Love and the Universe.
autobiography and megalomaniacal revolutionary escapism.
Weaving fragile lines between melodic story telling, sharp
songwriting and a developing self awareness, his tunes are
portraits of ideas and emotions that often transcend the
boundaries of their creator. Ben's songs exist in the world
where a commitment to adventure and reckless ambition are
the only recognizable landmarks, as he sings about his
personal observations on Life, Love and the Universe.
mmm blog
haven't written anything in a while
lost bag last night :(
bored, haircut, grr @ pimples, die pimples, forever.
dropped off a few resume's today, cross fingers.
lost bag last night :(
bored, haircut, grr @ pimples, die pimples, forever.
dropped off a few resume's today, cross fingers.
Sunday, 13 May 2007
mmmmmmm yes
Favourite Dashboard Songs:
Vindicated
Hands Down
Stolen
As Lovers Go
Ghost Of A Good Thing
The Best Deceptions
The Brilliant Dance
Don't Wait
The Good Fight
Swiss Army Romance
So Long, So Long
And the list continues....
Vindicated
Hands Down
Stolen
As Lovers Go
Ghost Of A Good Thing
The Best Deceptions
The Brilliant Dance
Don't Wait
The Good Fight
Swiss Army Romance
So Long, So Long
And the list continues....
Friday, 11 May 2007
boop ba doop
went out to chapel st to drop off my resume at frostbites, nice manager...
then met up with lidija, haven't seen her in a while so was good to hang with her, crazy intellectual discussions, booze and dancing, can't get much better, revolver's not too bad from 9pm till 11pm on a thursday, some funky hip hop tunes too, tomorrow, reunion with my swinburne mates, should be fun
kirk out.
then met up with lidija, haven't seen her in a while so was good to hang with her, crazy intellectual discussions, booze and dancing, can't get much better, revolver's not too bad from 9pm till 11pm on a thursday, some funky hip hop tunes too, tomorrow, reunion with my swinburne mates, should be fun
kirk out.
Thursday, 10 May 2007
Wednesday, 9 May 2007
redemption
Today i'm going to drop my resume off at frostbites, hopefully get a bar job there, probably do that around lunch time, maybe find somebody to hve lunch with, jimmy/brodie/lidija?
Must remember to clean the backyard up in the morning.
kirk out
Must remember to clean the backyard up in the morning.
kirk out
Tuesday, 8 May 2007
i am really enjoying
dashboard confessional, soo many good tunes, dude has an amazing voice too
best songs so far
vindicated
hands down
stolen
the brilliant dance
the legion of doom remix with sage francis is fkn insane, one of the best songs i've ever heard
best songs so far
vindicated
hands down
stolen
the brilliant dance
the legion of doom remix with sage francis is fkn insane, one of the best songs i've ever heard
15 minutes
This morning i ran 2.4k in 15 minutes. I don't know how athletic this is but for me it's a huge step forward in where i want to be, most importantly after jogging out one k i wasn't puffed or tired in the slightest, i can easily say i'm the fittest i've been in five years. Now i just need to not be the poorest i've been in five years and i'll be sweet.
Monday, 7 May 2007
this is how i feel
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So, mesmerizing, so hypnotizing,
I am captivated, I am
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
Kirk out.
Saturday, 5 May 2007
night out
Not in the best of moods tonight, had a really bad conversation with a friend i hadn't seen in a few weeks, said some stupid stupid things accidently because i was tired and stressed and got angry because i wanted to see her and couldn't. Wasn't her fault but i still lashed out jokingly but it was bitter, and it's not who i want to be.
I put it towards the back of my head and went out with jason, vanessa bless her kept my spirits up with her love and her words via phone and myspace and i had a great night and met some really cool people, i should give some kudos to zanna for his pep talk as well, oh and nadine just for being nadine, i really can't complain with the cavalcade of amazing intelligent and caring friends i have. Anything on top of that is a bonus, so if i lose this new one over one tired mistake of a conversation, i'll be sad, but i won't get stuck on it.
Also, i met up with therese, who i predicted i would get on with like a house on fire, and we did, there's a spark i've only ever felt with one other person, and that's my best friend sister from another mother vanessa, and if she turns out anything like the friend vanessa has been over the years, that would just be wow, to find one kindred spirit is one thing, but to find two, i guess i'm just blessed, and i am thankful for it, every day.
theresa (trees)
kirk out.
I put it towards the back of my head and went out with jason, vanessa bless her kept my spirits up with her love and her words via phone and myspace and i had a great night and met some really cool people, i should give some kudos to zanna for his pep talk as well, oh and nadine just for being nadine, i really can't complain with the cavalcade of amazing intelligent and caring friends i have. Anything on top of that is a bonus, so if i lose this new one over one tired mistake of a conversation, i'll be sad, but i won't get stuck on it.
Also, i met up with therese, who i predicted i would get on with like a house on fire, and we did, there's a spark i've only ever felt with one other person, and that's my best friend sister from another mother vanessa, and if she turns out anything like the friend vanessa has been over the years, that would just be wow, to find one kindred spirit is one thing, but to find two, i guess i'm just blessed, and i am thankful for it, every day.
theresa (trees)
kirk out.
Friday, 4 May 2007
haha i did it, going to bed now
i stayed up the whole day, 4 mocha's, good times, sleep now. wake up at 7am
Thursday, 3 May 2007
you know what, fucking SCREW IT, i'll stay up all day
this is beyond ridiculous, it's 6am and i've been awake the whole night AGAIN, i'm just going to stay up the whole day, this time tomorrow i'll be waking up after a solid six to seven hours of sleep, i swear it, now i'm going to the gym.
kirk out.
kirk out.
Wednesday, 2 May 2007
On a lighter note
Saw 300 for the second time tonight at IMAX
was friggin AWESOME
spiderman 3 tomorrow
FRIGGIN AWESOME.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111111111
was friggin AWESOME
spiderman 3 tomorrow
FRIGGIN AWESOME.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111111111
thank you johnny howard liberal voting scumbags
With the work choices system now in place both american and australian film and television productions can throw out safety requirements, fair working conditions, reward rates for overtimes and public holidays and proper payment for hard work.
Simply put, jobs that used to pay $40 an hour because of the complexity of them can now be paid $15, in fact, everybody can be paid $15, pay can be whatever the production wants, and screw working conditions, fairness, worker safety or caring about the people who work for you at all.
This is funny because i work in both the film industry and the hospitality industry and people are getting screwed at both ends, at the pub i USED to work at they forced everyone on to AWA's, i've since been removed from that place of employment, for what i'm not sure, they don't have to give a reason, or extra wages for working on sundays, or past midnight, or in dangerous times and locations. A good friend who used her weekend bonus's to pass rent had to quit to work in a factory for twice as many hours to now pay the rent. Along with about ten other people who have had to quit, I was shafted, we were all shafted, and it's not isolated incidents, it's everywhere and every one. So basically if you voted liberal you basically shafted one or more of your mates, so to all liberal voters
F**K YOU.
Simply put, jobs that used to pay $40 an hour because of the complexity of them can now be paid $15, in fact, everybody can be paid $15, pay can be whatever the production wants, and screw working conditions, fairness, worker safety or caring about the people who work for you at all.
This is funny because i work in both the film industry and the hospitality industry and people are getting screwed at both ends, at the pub i USED to work at they forced everyone on to AWA's, i've since been removed from that place of employment, for what i'm not sure, they don't have to give a reason, or extra wages for working on sundays, or past midnight, or in dangerous times and locations. A good friend who used her weekend bonus's to pass rent had to quit to work in a factory for twice as many hours to now pay the rent. Along with about ten other people who have had to quit, I was shafted, we were all shafted, and it's not isolated incidents, it's everywhere and every one. So basically if you voted liberal you basically shafted one or more of your mates, so to all liberal voters
F**K YOU.
Tuesday, 1 May 2007
JEbus.
That was fun, hard, but fun, and satisfying. The first brief for my latest and biggest film just emailed off to my executive producer. Figures/laws/equipment/research yaaaaaarrrgghh. A measely five pages, in about a month it'll be about twenty, in two months it'll be about eighty, fun fun, would i trade this job for anything else in the world, NEVER..........oh except maybe for supermodel sexability inspector, that job would be insanely awesome....but tiring.
kirk out.
kirk out.
wow, just wow
http://www.subkamran.com/sa/sa%20-%20bruiser.pdf
this is a story about bruiser, a street sweeper. i have not had so many emotions go through me reading somethiung, its 120 pages and well worth the read
it's a story...or more rather it's stories written by bruiser, a street sweeper. i have not had so many emotions go through me reading something, it takes about an hour to read but it is one of the most amazing tales i have ever read. It's a bit of a boy's read as in a lot of the humour is a bloke's sorta wit, still some parts will hit you at every emotional level, just make sure you read it till the end.
kirk out.
this is a story about bruiser, a street sweeper. i have not had so many emotions go through me reading somethiung, its 120 pages and well worth the read
it's a story...or more rather it's stories written by bruiser, a street sweeper. i have not had so many emotions go through me reading something, it takes about an hour to read but it is one of the most amazing tales i have ever read. It's a bit of a boy's read as in a lot of the humour is a bloke's sorta wit, still some parts will hit you at every emotional level, just make sure you read it till the end.
kirk out.
Monday, 30 April 2007
Just saw "half nelson"
A film about a teacher with a secret drug habit, and the friendship he forms with one of the young black girls in his class. Very indie film, very complex, some will be bored midway through but if these character based dramas are your cup o tea you'll love it...
I've said for a while ryan gosling is an awesome actor, maybe now people will notice, good indie film, the first half an hour the lack of tripod and the excessive focus pulls was giving me a headache, but the acting by gosling and the young girl he befriends more than takes your attention away, should get an oscars nod as it is one of the best performances one will see. 8/10
Going to use the last one of my sleeping pills tonight, pack of 20 lasted two years, they always rock my world, whenever i lie down after one i begin to feel my bed is a raft at sea and it's rocking with the waves, if i open my eyes it ends but i keep em closed because it's such a trippy fun experience, oh yeah and i fall asleep rather quickly too.
Kirk out.
I've said for a while ryan gosling is an awesome actor, maybe now people will notice, good indie film, the first half an hour the lack of tripod and the excessive focus pulls was giving me a headache, but the acting by gosling and the young girl he befriends more than takes your attention away, should get an oscars nod as it is one of the best performances one will see. 8/10
Going to use the last one of my sleeping pills tonight, pack of 20 lasted two years, they always rock my world, whenever i lie down after one i begin to feel my bed is a raft at sea and it's rocking with the waves, if i open my eyes it ends but i keep em closed because it's such a trippy fun experience, oh yeah and i fall asleep rather quickly too.
Kirk out.
Up again
So i got up at 8am yesterday and it's 4am so i've been up 20 hours and still can't get to sleep, watched "the interpreter" as a good friend said sean penn would play me in the movie of her life, i've seen a few of his movies, one of my all time favourite movies being "i am sam" but after seeing him in the interpreter i take it as a compliment. Going to try and sleep now, maybe chuck on the sphinx of imagination again and go for a trip.
Kirk out.
Kirk out.
Sunday, 29 April 2007
me myself and i
what a bizzare night, was supposed to go to movies then out to the night cat for salsa with a new exciting friend but both plans ended up caput, salvaged though because both events will be redeemed later this week, and what an exciting week it is.
Monday - movies with mother (call me cute and die)
Tuesday - 300 at imax cinema with cara (see: cute girl in photo)
Wednesday - first rehearsal with marion, straight outta nowhere we're starting a band, me piano/guitar, her guitar/vocals, it's pretty exciting
Thursday - ABC filming, always fun
Friday - SPIDERMAN 3
Monday - movies with mother (call me cute and die)
Tuesday - 300 at imax cinema with cara (see: cute girl in photo)
Wednesday - first rehearsal with marion, straight outta nowhere we're starting a band, me piano/guitar, her guitar/vocals, it's pretty exciting
Thursday - ABC filming, always fun
Friday - SPIDERMAN 3
Saturday, 28 April 2007
4:23 AM Insomnia sucks
My sleeping patterns are still ruined from the anzac day dawn service, dunno how i'm gonna snap out of them, hopefully try for six hours of sleep from now until 11am, then have an active day. Oh well, least i have cute friends :)
The Sphinx Of Imagination
A friend came into work and told me to listen to this http://www.hypnotica.org/ and lent me the cd. It's about an hour long combination of music and narration by "hypnotica" who with the aid of some very very heavy sound editting, twists his voice in pitch and tone as he puts you into a "trance" and takes your mind on a journey. For the first 10 minutes i was like "this is some chilled out shit" the next ten minutes gets a little blurry, then i woke up what felt like five hours later, like i'd just been through some epic movie adventure, i can't even remember what i thought about, i think there was a spaceship though, and angels? Either way i've been feeling good all day, going to listen to it again tonight, it does trip you out, will give it that.
Kirk out.
Kirk out.
Friday, 27 April 2007
You're absolutely gorgeous, what's your name?
It's funny tonight i am out and i talked to the three hottest girls in the club, one of them was on my arm ;) vanessa, the other two are quite interesting, the first i asked as she walked by what the thing was hanging around her neck, it was a little heart, i asked if it openned she said no, we started talking about op shops, she had a cool name, ruby, it was cool fun, a really awesome chick.
Second girl, stunning as well, i walk past in the smoking section, and i say "fancy seeing you here" and she's like "Yeah" all excited, i ask her what her name is, she says phoebe, i spell it out and she goes "correct" to which i reply "haha and what's your middle name" a new curiousity of mine (ruby's was ellen) but this girl, phoebe goes "what, you're weird i'm not telling you that" and just walks off. It was strange, for about one minute i thought i was weird, but then i realised, who the hell just walks off on somebody mid conversation, her beauty fell apart from that moment on, i'm sure she is a great girl but there is never an excuse to be rude to somebody like that.
When it comes down to it, you can be the most charming confident amazing guy ever, and still not get that girl, the beautiful thing is though, if the girl doesn't respond well to your presence, well then it's because she's not the type you want to be around, why waste time on somebody who won't accept you for who you are. I was quite normal, she was weird, good night out though, two gorgeous girls i should have talked to but never got a chance but that's because i wasn't going to to any effort, that would have been rude to the person i was already there with, and dancing and sinking a few drinks with vanessa, zanna and grant was good enough for me, friends first, always.
Kirk out.
Second girl, stunning as well, i walk past in the smoking section, and i say "fancy seeing you here" and she's like "Yeah" all excited, i ask her what her name is, she says phoebe, i spell it out and she goes "correct" to which i reply "haha and what's your middle name" a new curiousity of mine (ruby's was ellen) but this girl, phoebe goes "what, you're weird i'm not telling you that" and just walks off. It was strange, for about one minute i thought i was weird, but then i realised, who the hell just walks off on somebody mid conversation, her beauty fell apart from that moment on, i'm sure she is a great girl but there is never an excuse to be rude to somebody like that.
When it comes down to it, you can be the most charming confident amazing guy ever, and still not get that girl, the beautiful thing is though, if the girl doesn't respond well to your presence, well then it's because she's not the type you want to be around, why waste time on somebody who won't accept you for who you are. I was quite normal, she was weird, good night out though, two gorgeous girls i should have talked to but never got a chance but that's because i wasn't going to to any effort, that would have been rude to the person i was already there with, and dancing and sinking a few drinks with vanessa, zanna and grant was good enough for me, friends first, always.
Kirk out.
Thursday, 26 April 2007
I've just worked it out
I woke up at 3pm, going to the ANZAC day service at 5am yesterday ruined my already lacklustre sleeping patterns. Not happy with missing out on an entire day, I started doing random tasks with the thought pattern "i'll just wash some clothes", three hours later my room is imaculate, i washed my clothes, i vaccumed, i cleaned my cupboards i organised my next two weeks in my diary, i printed out resumes (getting a new job, exciting). I wasn't in the best mood when i woke up, but just by doing one small positive task it began a snowball effect and now i feel friggin awesome. About two minutes ago i stood up in my room with my sheets in my hands and suddenly conjured this thought:
Positive action sparks positive thought which sparks positive action which sparks positive thought...
Negative action sparks negative thought which sparks negative action.
The beauty is, YOU have the power to choose.
If somebody told me this a month ago i'd have been pretty chuffed, the last few weeks have been blar, but things are looking, no wait, they ARE great.
Kirk out.
Positive action sparks positive thought which sparks positive action which sparks positive thought...
Negative action sparks negative thought which sparks negative action.
The beauty is, YOU have the power to choose.
If somebody told me this a month ago i'd have been pretty chuffed, the last few weeks have been blar, but things are looking, no wait, they ARE great.
Kirk out.
Welcome to Zee Blog
This is zee first post of my blog, zee first of many, why zee, because european people are hotter than most people, and speaking with zee's is my attempt to capture some of zeir hotness.
Zee you all soon,
Tim
Zee you all soon,
Tim
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